Reality has truly sank in with neverending feelings of bittersweetness

Whew, what a title. Exactly from TODAY I have one, yes read thaeeret again,ONE,month until graduation. Im leaving behind childhood, a fantasy world and the carefree days. Sure i still want to have fun, be carefree, not serious and live life to the fullest but I still have to live in the reality world with adult things - consequences, bill, responsibilities... But that is life and I will continue to enjoy each chapter of my life with full on optimism and excitement. I have 16 days(left of school) to wrap up this long journey - of highschool, of all my regular, safe days of school, preK to 12th grade and say goodbye tothe people and come to terms I am only left with memories. And as that doorcloses, I must open a new one that will lead to my next journey and everything else new. I am ready, almost.. I dont want to leave the safety, the regular schedule and all the familiar people. But im ready to meet new people that i will actually be friends with, and do new older people things. I get a chance to do what I really want to do and im not stopped by regular school. Sure there is college but that wont let me get in the way of what I want to do. Nothing will anymore like I have let my1/2 yr long boyfriend do. I gave up friends, a social life,.experiences that can only happen senior year,.etc.. So im ready to stop that! Onto.new and better experiences.with a better life surrounded by better people and back to the old always happy optomistic and carefree, free spirit person!