humiliation at its finest

well, should I say this on the web? I just want to get it out. I went over to a friend's to chill and shit.. no biggie. f a d e d. ugh. too much. should've just fallen asleep on that bed.. but then I fucking threw up. which I tried to not make obvious. it was my fault. and... was fucking passing out on the couch in the living room. it was awful.. so it wore off and I was going to be fine but I was tired and ashamed so I opted out of riding to the store and goin to a kegger with them. of course I wake up and was like "DAMN, why didn't I go..." but I just keep looking at myself in the mirror.. and I look down upon myself... stupid me. ............bad moments. life. i'm awkward. woo. usually i'm not. so embarrassing. and I was quiet. fuck that ..